This amazing book has got me thinking about "what does making mean to me" .....
a book recommended by my sista Goddess Effect. This book isnt about the making process but the parts i have read touches on awareness of self and so i'm curious about awareness of self
through the making process.
through the making process.
A few thoughts ......
My idea of happiness is connected to making and exploring and trying new things so i can feel change every day within myself and know that i belong to the wind and waters of fluidity and so i borrow from the unknown.
i'm exploring....
"How we challenge ourselves daily through "making" with our hands, words and bodies and how we feel in the process, whether its forced or flows...... and why that connection matters and how it makes us or others feel. "
Indigenous communities "make" and much of my inspiration is based on their connection to the things they make, the purpose of their doing, the function of the thing made or spirit connection through meditation making.
I feel the need to make is directly linked to higher energy connections and that it is a form of breath and being . Also there are things i have made which i no longer want to make because that interest or desire has passed and i have grown. Knowing that we don't have to limit ourselves to making one kind of thing but can explore many types of making is liberation - imagine this freedom through making.
I noted that most creatives do more that one thing.
here for example are some of my lists of "making" : painting , sewing, designing, singing, jewellery making, graphics designing, pattern cutting, cooking, drawing, crafting, wood design burning, writing, taking photos and digitalising, illustrating.... I ask myself why is it important to do these things and what do they mean to my life. I know some are new and some i may stop doing but the desire to seek and expand is constant and that i am not one thing.
Our lives are important and what we choose to spend time doing in our lives is very important too.
We all have something we create and desire to see grow or become even if its not owned by us we are doing or growing something - an idea, a job, a path, a vision, a thought, a wish, a dream ......
I feel like i am leaving parts of myself through the things i do or make so i imagine when i am gone that i once existed and it connected to someone even for a brief moment as a memory.
As a creative person i go through periods of (The Creative Unknown) and i enjoy challenging this period of quietness by remembering that i haven't begun, by appreciating what i have achieved (as its not important regarding how small or big outcomes are for me - whats important is the participation), and remembering that i haven't arrived yet, i don't know what arrival is or where it is and that i'm not finished as exploration is endless.
One of the things i have found on this beautiful process of intentionally exploring / remembering and expressing "happiness" for example - is knowing that some days i may simply not feel as inspired or as colourful HOWEVER..... the conscious thought to simply "try" or "do" kicks in and making comes with decisions because the driving force reminds us that time on earth is temporary so we must explore, live fully and with as much love as possible.
There is so much we can do with our minutes and i'm curious about the emotion of "procrastination" or "delay" and i wonder why these feelings happen and what its teaching us - i do get them and understand its influence and power which makes confronting them a very exciting process because you become aware of your power to choose!
I often feel like i am manipulating a creative force and conjuring up an amazing chi energy of unlimited potential. The discovery of something new, the stretch of being... The attraction of new possibilities.
This forceful or flowing desire gives birth to something which doesn't have to be anything and doesn't have to mean anything, or be validated more than it has happened and now it exists and i am happy because i tried and something was created from nowhere or nothingness.
So here we have a abstract conversation about how i feel about the "making" process and hopefully is a continuous dialogue in my works....
My words to myself & you is continue to expand and forget self in the making and become that thing you are making without trying to become it.
peace Sarina xXx
